Fangs and Sarcasm

I cannot wait for our Biology teacher to grade the lab reports we just turned in. Why, you ask? Well, I'm quite curious as to whether or not she will notice that the middle of my conclusion states that the giant squid was my best friend.
(Rest assured that the lab reports had nothing to do with giant squid.)

Anyway, I'm going out of order of the title. It's for dramatic effect, calm down. I'm getting to the life-saving bit.
It occurred at cheerleading practice this afternoon. This practice was quite fun because we sort of ignored the fact that the Varsity team had started their practice too and we used the mats the whole time so we could stunt. (Only one team can have them at a time :P)
We have this one cheer that starts out like all the rest, with the squad in a silly formation doing silly movements while yelling silly things. Then we all move into our stunting groups (technically there are four groups, but one of them is very odd because the members are awkward together height-wise) and attempt to lift someone up into the air while continuing to yell silly things. (Oh, and the flier has to clap while they're in the air, haha, I am glad I'm not small enough to fly.)
Anyway, today was the first time we actually tried the stunt while saying the cheer. Erica's the flier for our group and we knew that we had to move pretty quickly to get her up on time. Unfortunately the rushing made her freak out a bit, I think; she bent over too much and her knees buckled.
Luckily for her I am an amazing back (ahaha) and automatically (I've never done it before, because she's never fallen before, it was just instinct) caught her, so she ended up sort of curled into a ball with her knees tucked to her chest with my arms around her (after, that is, she kind of hit the side of my head, which hurt a bit but at least she missed my nose xD).
So we all sort of freaked but I was like "I've got you, I've got you!!" and we put her down, and then everyone complimented my skillz and hugged me and Erica said "I love you" about 25 times. I didn't really know if I should be grinning and feeling proud, because I just did was I was supposed to and I didn't want to think about what would have happened if I hadn't. But it was funny since nothing went wrong, and now they trust me (she said she did before, but now she has proof xD) to be there if anything goes wrong. Which it better not. But yeah. lol.

Ok. That is my long, dramatic story for the day. :D

I'm not really doing much to celebrate this holiday. It doesn't seem like we usually do, which is fine with me. We were thinking of going to visit some family but I'm glad we're staying home because I appreciate the time to relax.

My mom is making pumpkin pie. That's about all I know is going on. Tasha and I are sitting on the computers. I am extremely surprised that she's not complaining about how long I've had her laptop. I've been reading Secrets by Vorabiza (the very long story I told you about, Lauren) which I just finished last night (I read for 11 hours straight yesterday. Probably not healthy. It was very good, as are all of Vorbiza's fics but I think I liked Malfoy Flavor better. And it had about half the word count). So I've had Tasha's laptop for maybe 3 or 4 days in a row. She doesn't seem to mind the desktop though. I like sitting on the couch if I'm going to read so long, so I really hope she doesn't ask for the laptop. My dad has the parts to fix Haley but he hasn't done it yet. Which is sad, because she was supposed to be a Christmas present last year, and she only worked for like 2 months.

Anyway. I am going to enjoy the 4 days off we get (and be jealous that some people have more than that). But once break is over cheerleading starts. We've had a few practices that aren't really practices but they are definitely workouts. I am not looking forward to being sore, but it's also fun.

I'm in the English room right now. Because it is English class and I am supposed to be writing a rough draft for a 5-page essay. So far I have the outline done. I just haven't actually started the rough draft. Because it's not due until Monday and I will probably end up doing it Sunday night.

Yesterday we had a meeting about cheerleading. I'm still kind of surprised I signed up, but I guess that's just me thinking I don't fit the stereotype of a cheerleader. That's half the reason I'm doing it. But mostly because I think it will be fun. Today after school we have a workout sort of thing that's optional; Erica convinced me to go. Not that I don't exercise on my own (yesterday I went on an hour-long hike in the woods with my dad and the dogs, and then I sat in the truck for a half hour waiting for my dad to capture Chester, who had run off. Again.) but the coaches said that everyone always complains about being sore after the first few days of practice (which starts the Monday after Thanksgiving break, which I have just realized is really close) and this should help.

This is the only full week of school we have in November. And it is terrible. Although I am excited for Thursday, because we have a GSA meeting after school for the Day of Remembrance and then I'm going to see New Moon at midnight with Aliza :D School Friday after getting 3 hours of sleep will suck, but at the same time it's fun, especially to laugh about aftewards. I think we're going to have a Biology test... hopefully I'm awake enough to not fail it. Anyway, then we're going to see New Moon again on Friday at 7, because we bought those tickets before the midnight ones and now we're going both times. I hope it's awesome.
I hope I don't make too much of a fool of myself at cheerleading. haha. Yeah, right.

I've been reading the Shoebox Project and making some progress; I think I'm on part 18 or something. I don't have that much time to read (something I am perpetually complaining about) with school and homework and now sports. But I shall get through it. That, and the actual Harry Potter series. And the entire works of Jane Austen that I have yet to really start. And a whole stack of books Erica gave me to read that I haven't touched since the summertime. And I need to re-read the Mortal Instruments.

Haha. Wow. I am ambitious. Kind of.
Ok. Going now. 25 more minutes left in this class. I've already read My Life is Average and played Flood It (and lost) several times. Maybe I will go and talk to Clever Bot now.

Yesterday was Veteran's Day, so we didn't have school, and I spent the whole day reading, jumping on the trampoline (Oh, right, I haven't posted about the trampoline yet. We got a trampoline. Yay.) and doing homework. Yesterday was not important!

The important story is about the day before that. lol.

So Erica stayed home sick, as she has every day this week. When I got on the bus to go home after school, I texted her asking how she was, and besides listing her symptoms she was like Hmm... I want a frosty from Wendy's.
So I text my mom asking if I can make a very strange request. When she asks what it is I'm like Erica's sick, can we bring her a frosty?
So I ask Erica if she's at her mom's house, and she's like Yeah... why? and I tell her to trust me ;)
My mom agrees to bring me to Wendy's, so when I get off the bus we make Tasha and the Allie's who came home with her promise not to go on the trampoline while there's no adult home to drive them to the hospital if they kill themselves on it, and we drive to Wendy's and get a frosty and drive to Erica's. She's in the living room watching Tarzan on demand (xD) and I knock on the door. She answers and is like I LOVE YOU O.O, takes it and hugs me, we laugh etc. and then I go home.
It was awesome.
So we've decided that November 10th is now Frosty Day and next year we are going to buy eachother a frosty.

That is my epic story of the week. haha.

So it's 10:30 at night and technically I should be asleep.
But screw that.

I went to school today... for a few hours. I felt fine in the morning, which was kind of surprising because I felt sick last night. But then it was just torture to even bother to pay attention by the time Biology was over (although that is not unusual for a Biology class) and I went to the nurse. I missed a History test and the soccer pizza party; the former I do not regret, the latter a bit more so. But laying around at home was good too. I curled up on the couch for a while and then when I got too tired to read fanfiction I went to sleep. That only lasted a few hours because Shannon decided to play some music on the lovely boombox that can be heard from any point in the house at the volume she insists on playing it; the cds also happened to be stolen from my room. God damn not having a door that locks. Or a door at all really.

The three-hour nap probably has something to do with the fact that I'm not sleeping now, although I am still tired and should have gone to sleep ages ago. I decided to read. Much better use of my time. We don't have school tomorrow, though, so I have all day then too. w00t!

I'm really happy we don't have school tomorrow because I probably wouldn't go anyway. This way I'm not missing any work :P And then we have a half day on Wednesday. Erica told me she heard that if a few more people get sick they could close school. I would not really be opposed to that. Everyone is or has been sick, including a few confirmed cases of actual swine flu. I don't have it, I'm just coughing a lot and feeling generally icky.

I was reading a fanfiction that was over 100 chapters and probably over 500,000 words, but I finished that today... I read another really good one that was rather long on Sunday. Now, as you should probably have guessed from the title of this entry, I'm reading the Shoebox Project. I started again from the beginning even though I read the first 5 or 6 chapter things before. It's brilliant anyway so it's worth it.

I have been re-reading the actual HP series- I'm on chapter 2 of the Goblet of Fire. The first book took me a few hours to read, I think the second one took me two days because it was a school day and I had homework. The third took one school day and then I was sufficiently distracted by fanfiction etc. and haven't made much progress on the 4th. So far the Prisoner of Azkaban is my favorite. But I have realized from reading fanfiction that I don't really remember at least the last two books very well. Which is probably because I read them in one sitting because I actually had to wait for those ones to be published.

Do not ask why I'm suddenly fascinated with Harry Potter; bit late to the party much, yeah, I know. I guess it's just because I am bored with the House and Tokio Hotel fandoms, and there are an excessive amount of characters to ship in ridiculous pairings so it's usually interesting, and the fandom is of course huge so there's no shortage of fanfiction, and a lot of it is actually good.
Ha. Seriously, I'm pretty much here for the slash.
Although I guess that's true in any fandom.

Ok, since my brain is random tonight, I will now go on to say that Halloween was pretty sweet. The party in my basement turned out well even though there weren't a lot of people (largely due to sickness, no doubt, because it was raining and dark and not exactly the best conditions for trick-or-treating so why one earth would you want to be doing that instead of hanging in my basement where the candy is sitting right there on a table and you can take as much as you want instead of walking long distances to obtain small amounts of candy that's not even guarenteed to be that delicious?). The costumes were awesome. I am considering cutting my hair like the wig I wore, but it'll have to wait several months because I'm leaving it long so I can donate it. I am also not going to dye it the same colors as the wig, but maybe I would dye part of it a bright color, like Aliza's got a bit of blue and pink in her hair. It would be annoying to have to straighten/blow-dry my hair all the time, which I would have to do if I cut it like that, but maybe it'd be worth it.
Apparently I'm not allowed to pierce my lip like the fake piercings I had. ...I think they would get too annoying anyway. Especially for sports. But I liked them. Maybe I'll just wear the fake ones sometimes. lol.

Tasha got a really cool tie and suspenders for her costume and she says I'm not allowed to borrow them. Damn.

Ok, I have now spent 20 minutes typing out this ridiculously long entry (why is it that I never update, and then when I do I have a zillion things to go on and on about because I haven't updated in forever? *headdesk*) and I'm going to go to sleep now. Apparently I'm not the only one still awake, I think I hear someone walking around upstairs.
I love having my room in the basement.
Also: Daylight Savings isn't so bad but if the sun wakes me up in the morning when I should be taking full advantage of the chance to sleep in on a Tuesday, I will be upset.

It's been a while since I last posted. Because I am lazy. Also busy. But mostly lazy.
Well I don't really feel like talking about some things. But I suppose I should start with the new house, since I haven't posted since we've been here :P

I like this house a lot. I ended up with the room in the basement, and my mom and I put up black fabric for the walls. We still need to get more staples for the staple gun to put up the last panel, but for now there's a sort of door. hehe.
We're going to have to do a lot of creative decorating down there for the Halloween party, but it's going to be fun :D

I'm not really sure why I'm awake right now. Yesterday I slept in til 9. Although I did stay up half an hour later, talking to Aiden of Facebook. That was a lot of fun, and it's sort of been a continuous chat with breaks for like three days. He's easy to talk to, and we have this rule about not answering 'not much' or 'nothing' when we ask 'What's up' like everyone does. And we started playing the question game, which is basically just asking eachother questions and then answering our own questions before the other person asks another one. We made a new rule that you can't use 'I can't think of a question' as an excuse. Just ask one anyway. haha. Surprisingly it actually worked. He really enjoys having me as a gay best friend, clearly; he often wants to know who I think is hot (girls). I had to convince him (and Adam, who interrupted the conversation) that Meghan Fox is not on that list.

Only one more week of soccer left! I still wish I could have played. Walking is fine now usually, and I can even run a little bit, but it's awkward and hurts and my ankle swells up afterwards. Still, it's worth it. I realized it's been over 3 months since I could run properly.
I'm a bit worried about cheerleading, but that doesn't involve a lot of running. I hope it goes well.

I got my Halloween costume yesterday, after much searching; Tasha still doesn't have hers. She didn't seem as enthusiastic about finding one, probably because she's still a bit sick. It was rather hard to find one that wasn't slutty, which is ridiculous! Not that I wanted to buy one from a package anyway, but they were all terrible. I did buy a wig, but it needs to be un-flattened or something to make it look right on my head.

I've been reading this really long fanfiction. I don't even know if it's complete but there are over 100 chapters. I'm on 43 so far and I've been reading it for hours. It's good but apparently I have an issue with angst xD No wonder I can't write actual plot.

Ok, I'm going to go now. No need to listen to my random thoughts. Bye =]

Everything seems pretty crazy right now. At least half of my afternoons/evenings are spent doing homework. That's stressful enough by itself, but there's also soccer games, working on walking, and drama with friends to deal with. Plus, lucky me, I'm moving this weekend.

I am actually very excited about that :) It seems kind of odd to be excited, but I feel ready for a change of scenery... I haven't seen the new house yet, but somehow I feel like it'll be better than this one. I think I can see it on Thursday, pretty sure that's when we get the keys. We have to figure out if I'm sharing a room with Tasha with all of our combined furniture, or if we're making a room in the basement. I would love to have a room in the basement and be left alone, but my dad said something about maybe putting the second tv down there, in which case I would be the exact opposite of left alone. So we'll have to see.
I guess packing won't be very fun, especially carrying things and walking a lot, because the walking is getting better but too much walking and my ankle complains. Which is frustrating because I feel like jumping around excitedly and I can't.
 But unpacking and arranging my new room will be exciting :)
The other awesome thing about the basement is that my parents said we could have the Halloween party down there. I think Erica's dad can supply the lights and sound system. Hells freakin yes. I can't wait.

So if I manage to survive moving and get all my homework done on time, I will be relieved. Sometimes things are way too crazy but at the same time if they weren't life might get a little boring.

Who am I kidding. My life will never be boring.
It is a soap opera, after all.

Oh, and either they weren't really paying attention, or my parents are awesome, because they apparently find nothing odd in me telling them "Lauren and I decided we're naming our first-born son Kirk."
Yeah, Lauren, I told them that xD

Another thing I can't wait for- the Color Dance on Friday! Lauren's going even though Jamie's not... I dunno why I type as if you're not hte only ones reading this, Lauren and Sarah... Anyway. I'm going to get no sleep this weekend, between the Team Bonding on Thursday, packing/moving Friday, Color Dance Friday night, and then moving more stuff Saturday. Probably unpacking Sunday. Fun, fun, fun! :D
Surprisingly that wasn't really sarcasm.

Oh, I also have a doctor's appointment during school on Thursday. Hopefully they'll tell me something useful about when I can participate in Gym and marching in Band. Oh, and the Color Dance. I might not really be able to dance as crazily as I want to but I'll deal. For some reason I love dances even though they usually suck. Hehe.
Ok, I should really go now. I have to take a shower and then I'll continue reading the 1,278 page book my mom dug out of the basement for me- the complete works of Jane Austen :D I'm excited. I gave up on lugging it back and forth to school, so I guess I'll just read it at night. Sense and Sensibility is first. Wish me luck <3

I'm so glad this week is over.
It's not that school's going badly, but it's stressful and my brain is always in hyperdrive so the weekends are heaven.

Soccer's going pretty well (not that I'm playing). I wish I could have gone to the game today, but I had physical therapy and couldn't make the bus in time... luckily this is the last time I have to go until next Monday because I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday. They said I've been walking better every time I come in, which is every other day. So I guess that's good. Sometimes I forget that I can't run, and I try to and obviously fail epically. It's worse because my right leg is usually the one I'd step with first so the fail is immediate.

My favorite class is definitely American Government. It is just awesome.

Speaking of awesome, today in English, Erica and Monica were talking about how they were worried about the game tonight. I was writing DFTBA on my notebook and decided to write it on Erica's hand, and basically ended up writing it on the hands of about half the soccer team for good luck. It was probably stupid, or at least other people thought so, but I don't really care... it's fun to do random stuff like that and just have fun with it even though it's silly. And I really do think it's a good idea to remember to be awesome.

Not much else I can think to say....
It's hard to think when I'm always worrying about friends or schoolwork or yelling at myself mentally or just daydreaming.

It's probably quite sad that I feel like going to bed this early on a Friday night :/
Oh, and the title's from an Ocean City song.

Shannon's watching Scooby Doo behind me. Earlier we had a little birthday party for her- Thursday was her actual birthday, and we had a cake, but my dad didn't get home until 9 and we hadn't bought all of her presents yet, so we had the family party thing today. She's 11, apparently. I thought she was turning 12. I guess I am a fail sister :P

I'm chatting with Katie and Kaitlyn on Facebook. Earlier Sarah was actually on and I chatted with her. (You know it's odd that you're on at a time other than 1 am, Sarah xD) Of course the people I most want to talk to never turn on the chat when they're online. Which I can understand, since people trying to talk to you when you don't want them to is annoying. But still.

School's going alright, but it's extremely stressful, of course. Every year they tell us about how much work we'll have once we're in the next grade, trying to freak us out. It seems this time they were actually right. I can already tell I'm going to fail our American Government paper and we haven't even started talking about it yet, he just gave us a description of the format.

I need to be more politically aware xP It would help if I had time to watch the news.

Katie and I are discussing future careers. I still find it funny that I want to be a psychologist and I like helping people with their problems, but I always freak out about my own. Maybe I'll be a psychologist with my own psychologist. Or just really good understanding friends that put up with my ranting. I've already got those :)

Physical therapy is going pretty well so far. On Friday they had me walk on a treadmill for a while, and move this board back and forth with just my ankle. I discovered today that I have marks under my arms from where the crutches rubbed. I wonder if they'll go away.

I am so glad it's the weekend.
The first week of school wasn't bad, but it's stressful. It would help if I wasn't learning how to walk again, but then I'd be busy with soccer so it'd probably be about the same.
I'm procrastinating homework until tomorrow or Monday. Which is probably a bad idea, but it's not like I won't do it. I just won't do it today. Haha.
So far, I like American Government a lot, and Algebra II is surprisingly not that bad (yet). I'm nervous about History because we have a project that involves roleplaying and I am largely winging it.
Jamie and I take the exam to get into French 3 on Tuesday. Lauren said it was easy so I'm not too worried.
Surprisingly I'm not sure if I like English this year; usually it's one of my favorite subjects, but I wish I had the same teacher as last year instead of the one I've got now :/

I'm sort of making progress with the walking. On Thursday I brought Colin and Gerard to school but didn't really use them. It's frustrating, because I can't move very quickly and it's not exactly graceful, not that I've ever been. I used Colin and Gerard again on Friday because walking was uncomfortable again. Today I walked around a bit but went back to the crutches when I got tired. I'm so impatient, but I know it'll take a while.
I had physical therapy on Thursday. I didn't really do much but talk to the doctor, but they gave me exercises to do at home. I'm not supposed to wear socks unless I cut the elastic at the top so it doesn't dig into my skin, so I've been wearing slip-ons. I have PT like three times a week for the next three weeks. I really hope it goes well. The physical therapist said my ankle might feel achy when it's cold and rainy even a year after I'm better! Gah. Why am I so clumsy?
I asked about marching, and apparently I might be able to handle the Big E, but it depends on my progress. I played the cymbals in Band yesterday anyway, just standing still, since we stayed inside instead of going out to march. I can't actually carry anything and walk at the same time, so I was just hiding behind the tenor drums, but Mr. F brought the cymbals over for someone else to play (Tim, I think his name is?) He had a broken wrist or something, but he held them anyway. He put them down after a bit and I took them, laughing. I'm the only one who bothered to learn the music to Spitfire, so I had to show Sam and Melissa how to play it, not that they pay attention. I made Tim put the cymbals away at the end of class because, again, I couldn't carry them. Plus I had to get out of the way of all the base and snare drum players that had to get to the shelf I was standing in front of. Which is difficult for a cripple.

I'm generally in a good mood today except that my stomach's been so weird lately that I don't feel like eating. I eat anyway, but it's an odd feeling. I've also never had any sort of insomnia before, but I keep waking up in the middle of the night and end up tossing and turning for a few hours. It felt awesome to sleep in today, even though it was only til 7:45. I was so exhausted from the school week that I went to bed at 9 last night even though I could have stayed up late.
Erica and I were going to see District 9 tonight, but her dad can't take us, so we can't go. I don't really mind; I'm a bit tired out from this morning. My mom and sisters and I went shopping, which was really fun- I don't look good in skinny jeans, but my sisters do, and I made Tasha try some on. She ended up getting two pairs, one black and one an obnoxiously bright blue, which she will probably not wear to school, so I can use that as reasoning to get her to go to the Color Dance. (No idea when that is, but Erica said there will be one, and it's the point to wear bright colors there, but Tasha never wants to go to dances. I will be so excited if I'm well enough to go.) Shannon got some skinny jeans too, but not crazy ones. I still laughed at how strange they seemed on her because she usually wears flared jeans, but she can pull them off.
(Jamie, if you're reading this, know that you have infected me with some sort of fashion-analyzing disease or something.)
I ended up buying a pair of jeans (though not skinny ones) and a few shirts. Hopefully my mom will take us to Faces tomorrow because I want to get birthday presents for friends there.

I finished Pride and Prejudice and Zombies today :D It was so awesome. I intend to read the original, but I have no idea when I'll find the time. I have a large stack of books from Erica under my bed that I'm supposed to read and give back to her. They've been there practically all summer.

Or maybe it's just that I don't want to be there. Hehe.
It's not that I hate school like a lot of kids do. It would be a hell of a lot easier if I wasn't on crutches. It's so annoying, I feel so clumsy and awkward. Not that I don't usually feel that way but now it's obvious to everyone else. Gahh. I dunno.

I realize I probably should have posted earlier, and I was going to but I forgot D:

Soo I got the cast off on Friday. My appointment was at 9:30, so basically I woke up, got dressed and left. They cut the cast off and I kept it even though it's cut up. My leg looked really weird. My ankle and foot are swollen and bruised, and especially around my ankle it's odd because the skin is pretty much imprinted with the pattern of the cotton padding from the inside of the cast. The back of my heel was bruised from me resting my leg like that a lot. They didn't say it was odd that it was swollen so hopefully it's not bad D:
I'm pretty much supposed to learn to walk again by myself, and until I can I use the crutches. (I decided since I'm such close personal friends with them, they should have names- one is Colin and the other is Gerard. Colin has purple duct tape, and my dad bought this cool plaid duct tape that I started to put on Gerard, but it didn't look as good as the purple, and I couldn't find the purple again, so he's pink now.)
Right now it hurts too much to put much pressure on my ankle but I'm hoping it gets better soon- I have PT on Thursday and I hope I can walk by then. It's especially annoying that I can't walk and carry things at the same time and I feel guilty asking people to do things for me.

My classes so far are pretty good, other than the fact that I have three huge textbooks for one day and lots of homework, and Jamie and I aren't in the right French class. Hopefully that'll get fixed. I didn't even have to ride the elevator today because the only class I have is French and that's tomorrow (though it was supposed to be today, and Lauren made it sound like that class was fun.)

It's Bill and Tom's birthday tomorrow, so if I can't post then (or I'm too lazy xD)... Happy Birthday guys! :D (No idea how to say that in German, do not ask.)

Oh, and I went to see Inglorious Basterds with my parents the other day. It was awesome. I was supposed to see District 9 with Erica yesterday but she had to work. Maybe this weekend.

I'm mad because I was reading a fanfiction but now the page won't load...
Ok. I'm gonna go now. hehe. Cya :)

I'm leaving for Maine with Erica soon. I have nothing to do really until she comes to pick me up, and I thought I'd say bye since I obviously won't be updating til at least Thursday. Erica just woke up an hour ago and went to sleep 5 hours ago, so she's tired and not in a good mood at all from what I could tell (we're texting, as always.)

I'm still not really sure about this trip. But last night I was ecstatic because Cherrytree Radio apparently got permission to play the full version of Automatic. So I spent two hours trying to get it to play instead of packing; apparently there's a free listener capacity, and since the entire fandom found out about the event and tried to play it, they had to increase the capacity, and it STILL wouldn't let me in. So I missed the first time they played it, but they played it every hour so I just waited for it to let me play it and eventually heard both full versions, German and English. I can't decide which version I like better. Maybe the English. Which is unusual, the German is often better. But they're supposedly releasing both versions to the US so I'm excited :) I don't really know what the point was in releasing a 53-second clip of Automatic a few days ago if they were just going to play the whole thing yesterday, but I'm not complaining xD It's all over Youtube now, of course. I'm surprised the videos haven't been taken down. But once again, not complaining.

Soo, wish me luck on this insane trip. I have never been to the beach as a cripple. Although the weather's not exactly supposed to be perfect. I doubt we'll get hit with Hurricane Bill (still laughing about that name; last year there was a Hurricane Gustav, maybe next year Tom or George? xD) but it's supposed to rain/thunderstorm.

Oh, apparently Gustav got a new tattoo. I swear this fandom is made up of ninjas, for spotting it in a blurry-ish photo, but if he didn't want us to know he shouldn't have got a tattoo on the back of his leg and then worn shorts. hehe. Kinda like Bill shouldn't wear a translucent shirt if he didn't want us to know about the nipple piercing(s?).

I'm gonna go now and make sure I packed everything. See ya :)

[Are you prepared for a really long entry?]

Today I woke up at 9 (thanks to my alarm clock, that is xD I realized today was the first time I had used it since I had to get up at 5:20 the day after Warped Tour to go to the hospital for surgery.) That gave me an hour to get up and dressed before Jamie and Lauren came over. As usual we had fun even though we did pretty much nothing :D Tasha was asleep when they got here, and apparently we woke her up with our complaining. According to her the only things we're capable of now are complaining and fangirling. We did not deny this.

So basically we sat in my room talking, and played some music, and watched some Youtube videos on Tasha's laptop. And then we went downstairs when my dad brought pizza, and ended up playing Project Gotham Racing on the Xbox (Lauren won) and watching more videos online on the desktop computer. It was awesome to hang out, since we haven't pretty much since they started Driver's Ed.
My dad thought it was amusing to remind us that we have 2 weeks left of freedom before school starts. I'm actually looking forward to school starting. Especially the event that happens three days before that, which actually gives me freedom rather than taking it away- getting my cast off. What I am not looking forward to is completing my goddamn summer homework. *flails* I. Hate. Summer. Homework! *headdesk*
Anyway, Jamie said she was going to be productive today and do some math homework. I didn't do any homework today :P Once they left I think I went straight on the laptop, and then I gave it to Tasha and went on the desktop so I could upload the A Very Potter Musical soundtrack Lauren gave me to iTunes. By the way Lauren, for some reason all the songs work until about halfway through the one about falling in love with Hermione, and then it just stops and the rest of the tracks are static. o.O? :(

I really do need to get going on my summer homework, and I'm probably going to make myself do some tomorrow. But I didn't feel like it today. Instead I have been watching the vlogbrothers videos on Youtube. Tasha has identified as a Nerdfighter for a while now I guess, and when I told her I was watching the videos she said 'Late to the party much?'
I have been thinking about fandom and how it relates to my life. It is an obvious fact that I spend way too much time on the computer. Right now I have the excuse of being a cripple and not being able to do much that involves going outside or physical activity. And even after I get the cast off that's not going to change anytime soon, because there shall be all sorts of fun things such as physical therapy and a Get-Out-of-Gym-Free Card. So I'll be sitting on the sidelines watching soccer games instead of participating in them even if I wish I could. But basically this all means that I will have the excuse of being injured for a while. And even though I sort of enjoy wasting my life on the computer I know that is exactly what I'm doing and realize it's probably not a good thing. I mean, it's ridiculous- I've probably been on here for literally at least 10 hours a day almost every day this summer. I have a problem!! D:
Most of the time when I'm on the computer I'm probably reading fanfiction. That would come after my addiction to Facebook, I guess. But fandom is definitely a huge part of my computer time. And it's kind of sad because half the time that's all I talk about in real life as well and it's probably very annoying. The other thing that is bothering me is that even though I consciously know this is not so, I seem to subconsciously think that things will happen in real life the same way they happen in fanfiction. Which needs to stop. Like now. Because I read too many fandom!secrets to not be afraid that fandom will take over my life. I don't want to be one of those fans;  the ones who are completely obsessed and make a fool of themselves because of it. The problem is I already am.

I want to be passionate about something besides fandom. I realized that I am not the sort of person that doesn't do things halfway. I do a lot of things halfway. I like to write, but I haven't written anything in a while and I am starting to give up on my dream of becoming an author because I am incapable of creating a thing called plot. I like music, but I don't play any instruments very well (I totally bullshit my way through Band and have no intention of continuing to play music after high school. I'm just a fan of listening to it.) I play sports, but I'm not the best, and I don't care that I'm not the best because I know I'll never be. And once again I have no intention of continuing them after high school. So basically I have no life.
I think the only meaningful part of my life would be my friends, who are amazing, and a good plan would be to hang out with them instead of sitting by myself... which sounds cool, but especially since they'll be playing soccer and I won't, I'm not really sure how well that's gonna go. But I am going to try anyway.
I could also try to stop myself from going on the computer, but I know that's not going to happen. So I figure that I should at least do something meaningful and/or productive while I am online.

I realized that I am horribly unenthusiastic about current events, even though I have this wonderful tool called the internet that I could be using to find news and such about the world around me. *eyeroll* Ok, that was too dramatic/sappy. But really. I should know what's going on. So another one of my goals will be to watch the news or read about it online. Whoo.

The other thing I can do while I'm online is talk to people instead of reading. I actually met a girl in Vietnam the other day online, her name is Binh :) Hi! *waves* That was really fun, and I got to learn new things from talking to her, so I guess that's at least a semi-productive thing to do online.

Ok. *yawn* I am through with ranting. This rant was actually longer before I realized I needed to stop myself. Oh, by the way Sarah, I need to talk to you (again xD), whenever you're back from traveling.
I apologize for the rant. It's obvious that I'm failing at the un-fandom thing when I get two messages from Twitter on my phone as I'm typing this and 1) laugh at the fact that there's a Hurricane Bill now, and 2) immediately go to Tom's blog because he posted another entry and get extremely excited about the fact that he might post pictures from the Automatic video shoot. *fail*

Sugar Rush playcount: Over 100. lol.

Pretty soon we have to get out of the house, because some people are coming over to look at it. Which means, hooray for us, we get to clean everything. Everything. Ugh.

I'm actually not helping very much because I'm a cripple. So I'm on LiveJournal instead of cleaning. I will take that any day.

I had to get up at 9:30 by order of my mom so we'd be out of the house on time. She told us last night that we couldn't sleep in later than that and to take that into account when we decided when to go to bed. I was going to go to sleep at 9, but of course that didn't happen, and then I decided 10, but I ended up watching A Very Potter Musical until 10:30. And then I tried to go to sleep, but I was basically laying there for over an hour because once again my brain won't shut up.

Eventually I did fall asleep, and I got up at 9, and then fell in the kitchen after two steps even though my mom had warned me that she cleaned the floors and they were still wet. Everyone seems to be out to hurt my leg today, because Tasha and Shannon both kicked it walking by me earlier and Chester has no concept of how his hyperactive moments affect anyone around him. So basically, he was walking back and forth in front of me and knocking into my leg every time. Fml.

We're going to hang out on the swings down the street while we have to be out of the house, because we have to bring the dogs with us. My mom said she'd drive me down there and then they would walk the dogs down. Fun.

Oh, also, happy 4-year anniversary of the release of Durch den Monsun :D I didn't even realize I was listening to it, haha. At this rate, the Tokio Hotel fandom is going to explode before the new album even comes out. I've heard several people say that the band's going to kill them before then; mostly those comments were on the post about Bill's new nipple piercing, but there was also a really cute little hello video posted yesterday. Basically Bill was like Hai we're in an airport in London waiting for our flight to South Africa to shoot the video for Automatic and we're tired but we're really excited and we'll have some news for you guys s**n kthnxbai. And for some reason the other three, especially Tom, were grinning about something, so now we're all curious. Although some people suggested that they were laughing at Bill's accent. Also, everyone was either like 'OMG Gustav actually SMILED' or 'TOM HAS A FOREHEAD!' because he wasn't wearing a headband or hat for once. Apparently that's enough to make his fangirls swoon.

Ok. I think we have to leave in 15 minutes so I'm gonna go now. Blah.

Lauren and I were talking about being geeks. I think that word should be a compliment. But I am laughing at myself. I was on iTunes... I bought Sugar Rush like, what, two days ago?

Play count? 78.

xD

Oh, plus I'm wearing the shirt we got at the science fair. Geek :)
I don't really have anything else to talk about, I just felt like posting... I should go to some homework. Erica brought an ancient Biology textbook that she used for the homework in that class, so I really have no excuse not to do it. Except that I'm lazy. hehe.

As you have probably figured out, new music makes me realllly happy :D
So you can probably guess that I'm extremely bouncy right now because I'm downloading the new Cobra Starship album. w00t! I'm kind of surprised my dad let me buy it, but I'm not complaining. The I Came 2 Party single came out in the U.S. today too, but I'll probably just wait for Bang! and buy that because I Came 2 Party isn't my favorite song and I don't feel like asking to spend another 99 cents.

Erica's coming over in a while to discuss packing for our trip to Maine, but also just to hang out and play Test Drive on my Xbox. Alex might come, too. Should be interesting xD I was playing Test Drive with my dad the other night, and I let him pick his car without commenting, and basically his sucked compared to mine because Erica and I had long since figured out which one was the fastest xD I beat him a few times, and then he changed his car to the same one as me and we were crashing into eachother a lot and he won a couple races. Luckily, unlike when I'm playing with Erica, I don't feel the need to curse loudly whenever I crash when I'm playing with him. That is a very good thing.

I'm really bouncy right now. Luckily I have one good leg, because it won't stop moving. (I always thought I acquired that habit from Aliza through osmosis, though she doesn't seem to do it anymore.) It's hard to keep the injured leg still. And I'm downstairs on the desktop computer so it's not even elevated.
But! I'm not complaining, because my dad let me spend 10 bucks on iTunes. So I'm extremely happy. Oh, that's the reason for the bounciness, if you were wondering. I guess you could say I'm high on music? Yeah.

Not to mention the picspam someone started on the Tokio Hotel community. Can you say visual orgasm? (And technically it's the third one in two days. Yesterday, there was one for pictures of Bill. Specifically, his crotch and ass. I know, I'm terrible. But I love you LiveJournal.)

I actually did some homework today, surprisingly. I read the first chapter of the English book, did the response and read part of the second chapter before I gave up. I told my mom what book we were reading and she was like, "Seriously? I read that in college." She said it was an amazing book, but complicated, or something. So far it's not bad, just a bit confuzzling and dull because there's not much dialogue, and the characters are, or at least the main one is, kind of batshit insane.

Shannon is staring at me because I'm doing some sort of hyper dance. It probably looks really weird since I'm sitting in a chair. With a cast on my leg. It's not my fault I have Sugar Rush by Cash Cash on repeat. (Ok, yes it is. I'm trying to make it my top played song. Which means I have to listen to it... 14 more times. xD)
For some reason Shannon's watching tv with headphones on. Mercifully I can't hear the tv because I have Tasha's Skullcandy headphones on and I'm sure I've mentioned before that they're basically earplugs. Plus sugar. xD
It wouldn't really matter if I hadn't bought Sugar Rush on iTunes, because before that I was repeating it on Youtube or playlist.com, or it was just playing in my head.

Ok. I'm gonna shut up about the song now and listen to it. I will be so sick of it in a week. Or a day. But right now I'm definitely not.

Yeah, I stole the title from a bumper sticker.
I'm bored out of my mind, once again, so I was wasting time on Facebook. I've also got Zander on shuffle- I finally redeemed the code for a free compilation of 28 songs from Warped Tour, so I listened to that (it was awesome) and then just because it's fun to shake him and shuffle the songs, I did :D

I once again did pretty much nothing today... Erica was on a boat and couldn't have her phone with her, so we didn't text. I texted Kelley for a bit but all she talked about was her upcoming birthday party. It's the day before I get my cast off, so I'm not really sure how well I'm going to do but I'm going. It's outside and apparently there's going to be a dj. At least I'll see people from school that I haven't seen all summer, and they'll get to see the cast before it comes off. I'm so glad it's coming off before school starts, though. I'm still wondering if I'll be on crutches at school or not. I'm guessing I probably will, but I have three days... *shrug*

This really shows how bored (or maybe just sad) I am- lately, whenever I got a message from fandom!secrets in my inbox, it shows up as a 'deleted entry' even though it's not, but today it suddenly started working again, and that made me really happy. Haha. Also I'm slightly addicted to the Twin Tetris game on a website I read Tokio Hotel fanfiction on... I can only get to level 7 before it goes too fast, but it's fun.

I should really start my summer homework. I'm planning on doing some tomorrow. We'll see how far I get. I purposely waited until closer to the beginning of school to start it, because I want to remember everything for when we talk about it in class, but there's also a point at which it's obvious I'm just procrastinating. Not that that's anything new xD

The last few days have been pretty usual. I hung out with Aliza the day before yesterday, I think. We talked and she decorated my cast and we watched Ironman :)  Erica came over today and yesterday, because we were both bored out of our minds and it's not too hard for her to walk here. She brought candy yesterday, but I gave most of it to Shannon. We've mostly been watching tv and stupid youtube videos, and playing car racing games on my xbox. I don't even have a 360, it's an oldschool xbox that we got when I was probably like 9. But we have a ton of fun racing eachother and swearing profusely when we crash into things, which is often xD

The drama I'm referring to in the title is happening as we speak. *eyeroll*. I really don't enjoy fighting with people or gossip or any of that shit. But unfortunately, this is high school, so obviously it's impossible to completely avoid. Even in the summer, apparently. Basically, a friend got mad at me because I refused to tell her who I like. I swear we were talking for a whole hour, and she went from begging to attempting to bribe me, back to begging and then to threatening me. I knew she was going to get mad. It was surprising how many times I had to repeat "No, I'm sorry, I can't, I'm not going to tell you," and yet she didn't stop. Eventually she got so mad she signed off of AIM, where we were chatting. I knew from experience that she'd feel bad about it later so I didn't try to talk to her again, and sure enough a few minutes ago she texted me apologizing five million times. I really don't want to deal with this type of thing but then again I'm glad I know it'll always end eventually, and overall it doesn't really matter. I just wish some people would understand that some things are not meant to be bits of gossip for them to spread around to reinforce their imaginary popularity- there are some things actually important to me that I really don't need everyone to know, thank you very much.

Wow. Ok. Calming down. Haha. It's way too late at night for this. Then again I'm the only one that considers 9:16 late at night. It's not really, I guess I'm just tired. Which is weird since I didn't really do anything today, or the day before that, or the day before that. I'm hoping I can get my mom to take me shopping this weekend. Anything to get out of the house, but also I really do need new clothes before school starts.

*yawn* Ok, I'm going to go now. If only the world would magically be less complicated when I woke up tomorrow :P
 

...because when I'm not going out of it, it drives me crazy by refusing to stop thinking xD

Once again I'm bored to tears, and I can't text Erica because she knocked her brand new phone into the sink and rendered it useless as far as I know... hopefully she got a warranty for it xD I've got my iPod (Zander, in case you forgot his name) on shuffle and I've been hanging out at home all day, same as yesterday... wondering how my friends are doing at driver's ed. Fanfiction is getting old and there's only so many times I can change my computer background to a different picture of Bill Kaulitz before I get tired of searching for those, too. Actually I just got annoyed looking for pictures from a specific photo shoot in which Bill has what I secretly [or not, since I'm announcing it on a public blog] call 'sex hair' (more so than usual, because yeah, it's always like that) that nobody seems to have posted anywhere. Thanks, internets. You have failed me.

My dad said we can go for a boat ride... not sure how that's going to go, since I'm on crutches and can't get the cast wet, but hey, anything to get out of the house. I just have to wait for him to finish putting another coat of wood varnish or whatever it was on an old wooden boat rack thing he had.

It's probably really bad that I skip about 20 songs on my shuffle before I settle on one I want to listen to. No matter how much music I have, I always need more xD My dad gave me permission to buy some on iTunes (I haven't done that yet, all the music I've added since I got Zander was from cds) but that would require going on the desktop computer where all my music is and I don't feel like it. Also, half the music I'd want is in German and wouldn't be on iTunes. I've had In Die Nacht stuck in my head all day because someone posted a link to a video of it on Twitter, which I of course watched, and laughed at the fact that if you had no idea who Bill and Tom were, you would totally assume they were lovers instead of twins. Well, that explains the twincest shippers.

Erica just called, and the phone is right next to me but I had headphones on a didn't hear it ringing, while my mom heard it ringing from downstairs. Lol. These headphones are like earplugs. Which is good for the quality of music, but not if you want to hear anything besides the music.

Ok, I'm gonna go now because I have nothing else to ramble about. (Isn't that usually around when I end these things? lol.) Cya.